I'm Weak at Multitasking

Last week, it's no exaggeration to say I was completely engrossed in playing Harry Potter Puzzles & Spells, almost my only game.

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Unexpectedly, I achieved a score I never could have imagined, and I had the desire to do even better. However, I realized that this is just a phase, and excessive immersion isn't good, so I'm taking it easy this week. For me, it's simply about "doing" it.

I've come to the conclusion that I'm completely terrible at multitasking. The illness I developed was ultimately due to brain overload. This is a problem both innate and acquired; from birth, I had an introverted personality, and long hospital stays prevented me from having a normal school and social life. Rather than blaming anyone now, I've decided to accept and acknowledge myself as I am.

Thanks to long-term medication and regular consultations, I've improved compared to before, but my illness is still ongoing. As I experienced last week, even now, when I need to concentrate intensely on something, I can't receive or even hear anything from my surroundings or the people around me. So, I ended up lashing out at my mother, who was nagging me repeatedly with the same thing. From my perspective, I needed to make a crucial phone call urgently, and her constant nagging was simply infuriating.

So, after thinking it over carefully, I realized it was a multitasking problem. Being good at it doesn't automatically make someone a good person, nor does being weak at it make someone bad. People have different backgrounds and upbringing, and I believe adapting well to the situation is the right thing to do. Although I may be behind and lacking in various ways compared to others, I also have things that others don't and envy. Therefore, I am content and grateful for the present.

Furthermore, though it's embarrassing to admit, as a Christian, above all, while living in this harsh world, I want to hold on to and rely on the Lord's covenant words, the words of promise. The new meeting with the pastor and his wife last August was a great grace and blessing. I pray that we will continue to live together, celebrating our first anniversary, fifth anniversary, tenth anniversary, and beyond, without losing our initial hearts and running well together on our journey of faith. With this prayer in my heart, I conclude today's durumis post, my first proper one in a long while.